I don’t remember what I said my hopes were for this year last year. I am sure it was something about it being good, having personal growth and learning as that is what I hope for every year.
I definitely had growth, and I have done a lot of learning. I was finally able to figure out what I want to do and take the steps I can take to try to get that in to motion. It took a lot of falling down to get there, but if it all works out, it will have been totally worth it.
We moved, and that wasn’t expected. But, I came to a big conclusion. I need to live somewhere that is not car dependent. It changes the way people and families interact, the type of outings people do etc. Plus, I can’t ride my bike, walk or rollerblade places so I do not get enough exercise enough at all… and that hurts. So, I want to eventually make it out to someplace that is bike friendly again (because as much fun as walking was in New York, I missed biking safely), and that has public transportation and big parks (and also sits within an hour or two of the ocean and mountains… preferably closer).
There is the growing family thing. There are never really words for that. But, again, this is something to look forward to next year.
I feel like after 9 years with Justin we are at another growth apex. It is always nice and unexpected when those happen. I found the photo album from when we first started being a couple (I am not sure how to phrase this at all), and we both look so young. It didn’t feel like we had been together very long until I looked at those photos. I am looking forward to what next year will bring.
Tristan did a lot of growing this year too, but that is to be expected when one goes from year 1 to year 2. I am very happy that he is a part of my life. I get to experience lots of new emotions because he is around and I hope I am cultivating his personality (and I say cultivate because he has a very distinct personality), in such a way that he becomes the amazing person I know he can. Only time will tell though.
Basically, it seems like 2008 was really a transitional year when I look back on it. A bunch of things were put in to motion, but I won’t know the outcome until next year. So that means 2009 is the year of hopes and dreams. I’m not allowed to think about it too much though, or I stress myself out.